Do you miss me like I do?

last Sunday midnight, I made a decision:
I will stop follow Daren,
I will stop myself to find him,
I will stop to like or love him...

Those criteria are not easy tasks to me
I miss him every day and night
I miss him when I opened my eyes
I miss him before I sleep
Luckily I din't dream about him
Luckily I'm still intact
Yet
My heart is missing
Perhaps I need to fool myself with abundance of work loads

I do dreaming and wishing he will be mine
Like the Tarot told me before (told me he was the one but might not a good ending?)
or the later part
After the ends, you will meet the love

I'm wondered, what will be the next for me
Was I become a rich lady?
Was I married?
Was I ... able to fall in love?

This few days, I was wondering
was the decision lead to better outcome?
I'm not too sure for it
but eventually something good will be happened

Do I showing my love to him?
Do he cared me?
Do I opened my heart to him?
Do he dared to love me?
Are we selfish in love?
Are we dare to step out from the comfort zone and fall in love again?

I miss you...
Do you miss me like I do?