我的心乱了。。

这几天我真的犹豫了，犹豫对他的感情但想起他家人对我的种种伤害，想法又止步了。。。
我，主动找他聊天
他，主动告诉我他的近况
我，存有爱恋和依恋
但我止步了
我害怕
天啊，干嘛让自己陷入这种无尽的深渊啊
对拥有这种想法的我，好奇和无奈
好奇是我对他真的是爱恋吗？
无奈是为什么那么的突然啊？是荷尔蒙吗？
想知道他的真正的想法，想关心他，仅此而已，也许只是对朋友的关心也说不定

算了算了，也许保持联络并不是好的现象。。

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